What Each Morning Brings

I almost missed it.  I nearly overlooked the cobalt and cloud blue ruffles of this tiny iris that seems to have bloomed overnight.  Three years ago, I gave Joe a garden gift for Father’s Day:  a mail order collection of iris bulbs in all shades of blue and purple.  Eleven  came up that year, all  but one.  The next year only three or four dusky green blades pushed through.  Last year, none.  So I wasn’t expecting to find this lovely offering.  I am grateful to notice what this morning brought to light.  Richard Wilbur’s poem adds to my note to self:  notice what each morning brings!

In the strict sense, of course,
We invent nothing, merely bearing witness
To what each morning brings again to light:
Gold crosses, cornices, astonishment
Of panes, the turbine-vent which natural law
Spins on the grill-end of the diner’s roof,
Then grass and grackles or, at the end of town
In sheen-swept pastureland, the horse’s neck
Clothed with its usual thunder, and the stones
Beginning now to tug their shadows in
And track the air with glitter. All these things
Are there before us; there before we look
Or fail to look; there to be seen or not.
~ from Lying, by Richard Wilbur

Welcome Back

 

Last week, when straightening the house before bringing my husband home from a hospital stay, I brought the first few roses to open since early December inside to brighten the table by his chair.  A rosemary sprig completed the little bowl of multi-colored blooms…all from the same bush.  These roses, named Mutabulis, are different colors at various points in their budding and blossoming, darkening with age, instead of fading.  Single petals open soft yellow, changing through peachy coral  to  rich pink and finally dusky crimson.  Flowers of all these colors will often be on display at the same time, looking as if a host of varigated butterflies has settled on the bush.   C. S. Lewis said  “What you see and what you hear depends a great deal on where you are standing. It also depends on what sort of person you are.”  I can stand on all four sides of this huge rose bush and see a different color rose each time.  I know this is due to this old rose’s roots as well as by what they are nourished.  I believe I am hearing that the sort of person I am is due to the same things.

When I picked the flowers for Joe, they were the first and only to open.  Today, only 2 weeks later, our three rose bushes in the corner of the back yard are putting on quite a show.

Labyrinth Meditation

I  step on one stone which draws me outside in,

Centripetal propelling of self toward center.

One step, then another, a walk on a labyrinth path.

Seeking, finding

A center for refilling, refueling, refreshing.

Then reverse, return.

Stepping in an outward spiral,

The centrifuge which slowly spins and scatters this gathered grace,

Inside out.

   ~Mary Ann Parker, January 19, 2010

Winter Friends

  Our Northern friends think we are funny when we gasp at 19 and 20 degree weather, but a recent forecast for days of these temperatures with little relief for thawing had us scurrying to clear the shelves at Home Depot of materials for wrapping pipes and covering foliage.  On the day before the predicted hard freeze, as I watered, then unscrewed water hoses and prepared to wrap faucets, I discovered one plucky narcissus opening little white stars in brave bloom.  I brought it inside to grace my kitchen window sill. The petals have turned to parchment.  Little heralds of flowering to come,  they are paper stars of hope.

In the evening after I picked the flower, Joe helped me with shaking out large wraps for citrus trees, azaleas, and container plants.  We were on our back porch, and after the first big whisk of a sheet, there was a mighty flapping and bustle on top of our heads.  As I cowered, I realized we had startled a dove who had made her nest in an empty hanging basket by the back door.  She gave us as much a fright as we had given her, and flew away indignantly to watch us tuck plants in for the night and leave night lights on. The porch lights must have helped her and her babies  keep warm, too.  They sing their morning song to me every day, thank you notes.

 

 

Autumn

Today, on my last birthday that will be sixty –something, I think of the gift of time, and the changes that come in this time in my life.   In this quiet hour as I sit looking at my garden changing into its autumn dress, I consider what the dormant fruit trees and  absence of bright  blooms says about these growing things.  They are different now from March or May or the heat of August, but those of root and permanence survive their winter and will bring heartspring with leaf and bud, even new fruit in a few months.   

In the garden seasons  I see beginning and changing and, yes,  some endings.  But the story of the seasons begins a new verse with its cycle of renewal and rebirth.   In my autumn self my roots remind me of this larger cycle of hope and grace.  I love my November birthday!

“Life is so full of meaning and purpose, so full of beauty beneath its covering, that you will find earth but cloaks your heaven. Courage then to claim it; that is all! But courage you have, and the knowledge that we are pilgrims together, wending through unknown country home.”        ~ Giovanni Giocondo

Fruit Full Fig Tree

Fruit Full Fig Tree

Fence Corners

Some people, passing, look at fence corners

And see weeds and briars in the angle of space

Where the plow seemed to miss its furrowing.

They see wild plum and sassafras growing in crowded fashion,

They see uncut grass and elderberry flaunting a lacy bloom.

They see only weeds and grass and briars,

And feel, out loud,

That elderberries have no reason to grown on a farm;

And they feel, still louder, that a farmer is shiftless

Who lets his corners run riot with weeds and grass and briars.

 

They do not see the nest, well hidden, with the five small eggs,

Not the swift brown wings that flash out and in,  out and in,

Until five yellow mouths open wide for food;

Nor the rabbit, grateful to sedge for is sheltering wisp,

Nor the lizard that suns on the rail in wait for a fly.

They do not know that birds watch each berry’s turning.

They do not see, nor understand, how much of the drama of life

 Is lived in fence corners. 

 

They did not see the ploughman’s hand, in spring,

Rough with the weather and hard from toil,

Skillfully guiding the team in a wide circle to miss the corner.

They did not observe his expectant looks while hoeing or reaping,

Nor sense the glow that welled from his heart

As the rustle of grass revealed small stirrings of life in the tangle of growth.

 

In the rush of their journey there is not enough time to see with their eyes

Nor feel with their hearts, the ultimate growth of the soul of a man

Who knows it is good for a farmer to share a small corner of field with his friends.

While passing, they see only weeds and grass and briars.

                                                 ~author unknown

This was given to me in 1957  by Doris Nutt, who knew the value of small things and small girls in corners.

Spending days together recently, my six year old granddaughter Skye and I walked and talked a path of awe and wonder.  Several mornings in a row found us on a trail around a small lake in our neighborhood.  The place on that route we visit most often is well loved by another granddaughter,  Maddie.  She is only three but she asks me about this place when we have telephone conversations because I took her there on one of our first walks together.  We call it the Secret Place.   Last  week, the three of us had a conference call from this location!  Skye called Maddie from my cell phone and told her she was in the Secret Place and wished she were there.  Maddie asked questions and planned for when she would be there  too.

This spot is only a small square of paving stones where two garden benches sit facing each other, but it is arbored by luxuriant evergreen wisteria and bookended by crepe myrtles .  One open side faces the walking trail.  The other side opens out to the lake.  When we enter this shaded, hidden spot and look out across the glistening ripples of water, our view is framed by feathery fronds of wisteria leaves and knarled vine.  Sometimes we see ducks land and take off on the water,   a turtle head bob up, or spots where fish make widening circles on the lake surface .  It is an enchanted spot, a place of cool quiet.   Skye told me when something is so beautiful it makes you want to whisper.  Maddie  must have felt the same, the last time we were there.  She whispered. 

One of the subjects of whispering last week was the tight clusters of blossom that had begun to show at the tips of the wisteria branches.   When we first noticed them, they looked like tiny sprays of green peppercorns.  The next day they had swelled and within the next two days, the earliest little berries were just beginning to split and show promise of the purple inside.  We whispered what they would soon look like:  clusters of fairy size royal robes hanging like grapes, soon to be joined by more and more until our Secret Place would be dripping with deep purple, draped in beauty.

Skye is not here this week.  I walked alone yesterday on the path by the lake and started to smile when our treasured spot came into sight. As I drew near, I fleetingly registered some difference in the foliage, but only after I went inside and sat down, thinking about the little girls and our pleasure in visiting this nook,  did  I frown and take in my breath.  I looked for the several budding clusters of flowers we had tracked for progress of bloom.  There were none.  Then I saw the amputated stubs of branch and vine,  the telltale withered leaf clusters on the ground.   I understood that the crew that keeps our neighborhood mowed and trimmed  had vigorously pruned  the vines.  Tears welled up as I realized the  precious  jewels in our treasure box had been chopped off and discarded. 

I know pruning is necessary.  At times branches must be sacrificed for the health of a growing thing.  My sadness is for the undeniable fact that we may not know whether something we so easily dispose of has brought joy and beauty for another.  By what do we measure the dispensable?  What nest in fence corners, what frame for someone else’s view do I damage?  In the garden of my soul, do I trim with care?

 

 

 

Inhabiting Our Lives

 Let us remember that in the end we go to poetry for one reason, so that we might more fully inhabit our lives and the world in which we live them, and that if we more fully inhabit these things, we might be less apt to destroy both.   

Christian Wiman, as quoted in Poetry Magazine